Cody Updates by Mom

Today has been a much better day.  The joint pain is under control which is helping me feel like eating which in turn is helping my overall well being.  I feel a little bit more human today and have been upright more today than all week.  I was really wanting to get out of the house so Jim took me to dinner.  Thank you to everyone for the gift cards.  I am sure the waitress thought I was a little nuts because I had green beans, mashed potatoes and a little of Jim’s steak.  After not much food for a few days it was best to be safe.  It was so nice for the two of us to have a dinner that Jim didn’t have to do a lot of work for! 🙂

We also went for a walk tonight.  It was a slow one but I made it around the whole block.  Felt good to see the sun and have some fresh air.

This week has been a week of many lows.  I do not think that my will of inner strength has been tested to this extreme ever.  When you can hear nothing but the pain coursing through your body it is a very lonely place to be.  I had moments of sheer panic of not being able to carry on and complete anger about the whole situation.  I cried a lot and felt the depths of hopelessness.  I do not want to be there again.  We at least have a plan for the next round and we will be able to better weather the storm of side effects.

The notes, cards, emails, messages and pictures that I continue to get are great.  Thank you to all of you for your support and the fact that you are thinking of me to send me a note.  I really do appreciate them very much.  It is a bright spot in my days.

So, tomorrow is the big “removing of the hair” day.  I know that many of you can not make it for various reasons and I know that you have all said you will be there in spirit.  Thank you.  If you are around we will be at the Car Bar “American Motor Sports” in Cottage Grove from 2-4 (or so) tomorrow.  I am looking forward to seeing everyone that can make it.  I am so relieved that I am finally feeling better so I can enjoy the party! 🙂

Caring Bridge Comments

Linda Follmer|May 2, 2014 8:53pm
You have a gift! Your ability to describe what you are going through in your writings brings tears to my eyes and hope in my heart. You have been and will remain in our prayers.