Cody Updates by Mom

9 days!  It’s now countable on fingers.  [Enter nervous laugh here].  I am starting to feel a little bit of the nerves but not a significant amount of nerves yet.  I am amazed that when I really think about what is happening I just cannot get my brain to wrap around it.  It’s almost like the reality is just on the other side of a thin pane of glass.  I can see it but the glass is making it a little distorted.  It’s right there in front of me but the glass is stopping me from being able to touch it.  I just need to break the glass to get to it.  The glass is pretty thin but I am not ready.  I wonder, is the glass protecting me from the reality until I am ready to really grasp it?  Probably.  I have felt this feeling before during this journey but in a little different context.  There is a thin fragile line, or piece of glass, that lies between fighting and giving up.  It would be so easy to not get back up, give up and let it beat me.  It’s hard to explain but its right there at the edge of your vision you just have to stop looking forward and it will show itself.  Its more work to keep fighting.  Giving up, however, has never been an option.  There have been times that I have found a small hole and let the pity party in but luckily those moments have been brief.  I have been able to keep moving forward on the “fight” side of the line.

We have a board at work that my department uses to keep track of people that are out of the office for the current week as well as the upcoming week.  Well, my time off has finally bubbled up to be on the board.  Not that it was ever really far from my mind but this is a constant reminder that I am out.  One of my friends asked if I would feel better waiting to put it up there but no, there’s nothing like a little push for me to get all my stuff done.  🙂  Right?  I guess we will have to see if it actually stays up there all week.  I may have a “moment” and erase it.

The fun part of the day was a little gift I got from a coworker.  One of the guys that is a consultant in our IT department and his wife gave me the Minion Operation game.  It came with a note that said that he wanted to give this to me just in case the surgeons wanted to practice before next week.  Thanks Paul and Catherine for the game.  I very much appreciate when people know my sense of humor.  I think my weekly team meeting this week will be much more entertaining now.  🙂  It has been great to have it on my desk for people to try.  I kind of like watching their startled reaction when they miss and touch the sides with the tweezers.  I know, that’s kind of evil but hey at least I am not laughing “evil’ly” when they do it.

This week is all about getting ready for next week.  I am working to get as much of my work done this week as possible so my team doesn’t have to pick up too much of my slack.  Getting the house clean, getting the car fixed, getting caught up on laundry, grocery shopping and all sorts of exciting fun things that are quite possibly my favorite things to do on the planet.  Oh, sorry, sarcasm took over for a bit.  Have a great night all!

Caring Bridge Comments

Love and prayers..from mom|Jan 20, 2015 8:34am
It ended up below this one. Love always.