Cody Updates by Mom

On Monday morning, instead of looking at the door to work and contemplating the craziness of the upcoming day, I looked up.  I snapped this picture as I thought about perspective.  I have been thinking about that a lot lately.

My stress level has increased over the last 5-6 days immensely.  I actually do not remember a time that I was this stressed from the inside out.  I actually started writing about the weight of stress a couple times and couldn’t finish.  Stress can weigh you down right to the core.  I was feeling very heavy.  In the midst of the reality of this situation hitting me two things happened to adjust my perspective.  Last week a very dear friend of ours lost her mother.  No matter what the situation, the end is always hard.  Then this weekend one of our high school teachers life was ended too soon.  Cody had him as a teacher and really liked him.  With everything going on this hit Cody pretty significantly.  He talked about the fact that his teachers daughter was about his age.

Perspective.  I have a friend who is an amazing photographer.  She can make a railroad track look amazing by the perspective from how she sees it.  Her perspective adjusts what we see.  Each time we react we do so from our perspective.  Our life experiences.  This week I have not written much because of the stress of my situation trapping my creativity and focus.  God granted me a moment of perspective. It did not take away the fear of what I am facing but helped me to regain my inner fight.  In the end, I will still be here telling cancer where it can go.  I may get weak after surgery but I will come out of this as a stronger me.  My perspective has been rerouted.

On a happy note, I want to say thank you to my co-workers today.  Especially Debra.  You see, Debra had a plan for a potluck today.  She had me invite everyone I wanted to invite and then I got to choose the menu.  Thank you so much for this amazing send off.  It was so wonderful to eat each of the awesome, yummy food items that people made for my potluck.  I think we could have fed the whole building with the amount of food that was there.  Thank you also for letting me invite my mom down as well.  It was very nice to have her there.

So, tonight we pack.  Its my last night at the house and sleeping in our own bed.  Its the last night seeing Cody for a few days.  Tomorrow we work a half day then it is off to Mayo for my blood test.  Pray for negative or you will be seeing Mel in the Loony Bin!  Tomorrow night dinner in Rochester and we call the surgery number to find out my check in and approximate surgery time for Wednesday.  Then, it is all about the healing perspective and figuring out my new normal.

Caring Bridge Comments

Joan Gilmore|Jan 28, 2015 7:27am
Praying for peace, calm and good doctor skills.