Cody Updates by Mom

Change.  Change is here and it is there.  Change is everywhere.
Even when you are not looking, change will sneak up on you.
Change is what keeps us up at night.  Change will make us cringe with fright.
Change is what makes you, you.

Change seems to be my new normal.  Life, work, kids, body and all other things are changing.  So, how does a person navigate the waters of change?  With a life jacket and arm floaties!!!!!  Yep, she’s got it down.

So, here we are discussing the ever long topic of change.  You can read books like “Who moved my cheese” or researching all of the reasons why change is so hard for us humans.  In the end, it is HARD and we have to figure it out.

 

Why now?  I seem to be living an inordinate amount of changing things in my life.  Let’s do a quick summary.  My son has moved into his own apartment.  Deep breath.  Now that makes us empty nesters.  Yikes.  My boss left my company and I will get a new boss.  Deep breath.  My whole company is moving to a new building with a whole new “culture” in January.  Deep breath.  We completed the studio for recording and now multiple hours and hours are spent on songs.  These are just the top ones.  I really do think that I need “change floaties!”

Last week, I talked with my mom and there are things that change that are wonderful.  Getting on in her later years my mom has been struggling with her eyesight and hearing.  We knew that we cannot change the process of the eyesight but there was something that we could do for the hearing.  She needed new hearing aids that were specifically designed for her.  It cost a pretty penny and thank god for those 0% credit card offers or I would not have been able to do it.  But hearing my mother talk about standing on the street and hearing the birds for the first time in so many years and cherishing the sound, made me realize that sometimes change is great!  I would have spent double the amount for her to have this gift of hearing.  She gave me the gift of life, it was the least that I could do for her.

Change can be good.  It is all in how we perceive it.  So I sit here and work on seeing the good in the change in my life.  What future things are going to be because I have embraced this change?  What can I do with the new?

Cancer changed me.  Losing my stomach changed me.  My son losing his dad changed me.  Being a step mother changed me.  In the end, all of these changes make me, me.  Good, bad, stressful and otherwise they make me, me.  God bless the broken road that brought me to me.

Change is here and change is there
Change surrounds us everywhere
Change is new and change is old
Fear the change is what we’re told
But why do I hang on to the old

Change happens to us every day
Even a small thing can change our way
How we adapt seems to be key
All those changes made me, me
I wouldn’t change it for all the gold

Thank you to the change in my life for making me who I am.  Help me to keep looking for those little things that can change me into a better me.  There are songs, books, poetry and all sorts of what-not that has to with change.

Then….. there are the things that stay the same.  I am still tired.  All my blood work has come back as normal.  I had a weak positive for Rheumatoid Arthritis but not enough to do anything.  So, here I am, tired as all get out and not knowing how to fix it or even why it is an issue.  Eating isn’t an issue and everything they test is “normal”.  I mean, my god, I have never been normal in my life why does it have to happen now?  I am certain there has to be something there.  Today, it is not in the cards to figure out.  So I keep going forward, knowing that my tiredness is going to be there but I have to keep my head up and my focus right because life is not slowing down for me.

One the bright side, I have an amazing support team.  Those that have been in my life for a long time and those that I have just met.  Thank you.  I cannot travel this world of change without you.  I have been so very blessed with the people that have walked into my journey that I cannot say thank you enough.

What’s next? Change.  That is what is next.  Life is good and I am still here after all of the crap.  I just need to remind myself of that from time to time.  I will figure out the tiredness but until then it will be caffeine and naps to bring me through!

Love you all to pieces!!!!!