Cody Updates by Mom

First of all, I would like to apologize if I am not responding to people that text, call or comment on a post.  I am feeling a bit overwhelmed right now with all aspects of my life and it is hard for me to do it.  Work is completely crazy and stressful, my son is trying to find his way, we are trying to get ready for a much needed weekend completely away from technology and feeling guilty for wanting that, and finally all the stuff with mom.  Please know that I read all of your comments and I am so very blessed that so many of you care to give me encouragement and pray for my family.  I am humbled by your support.

Even though the Social Worker from Litchfield did not respond to my email, she did call me this morning.  Unfortunately, it was right in the middle of a meeting that I was running but luckily I have a team that can easily step right in and move things along.  She did not apologize but at least she was able to tell me what the issue was.  Basically, my mom is in the hospital because of behavioral issues.  As soon as the psychiatrist says she can be discharged then the social worker needs to have a place for mom to go.  If we do not have the Medical Assistance (MA) set up to have mom be able to go into a memory care unit she will need to be placed into a nursing home.  Megan (the social worker) and I agreed to give the Milaca team half of today to get the paperwork through the system.  If we did not hear anything then she would start looking at nursing homes.  I am happy that we were able to mend some of the issues between us.

Luckily, things worked out as hoped.  My mom was approved today for MA.  I can say that when that email came in, I just sat there and looked at it.  I was so relieved and emotions were so intense lately that I just cried at my desk.  I needed this to happen today and it did.  The relief came out in my eyes.

After that moment of relief, I sent the information to Megan at Litchfield.  I then called her to find out the next steps.  She said that this is the information that she needed to get mom into the memory care unit at Cokato.  She is working with the people at Cokato and will let me know what is next.  I am sure that there is more to do with paperwork and stuff but I am happy that we are able to take this next step.

My only concern is that they will move her on Friday.  We finally had a weekend planned to get out to our land and completely unplug for more than a day.  I feel guilty that this may be over when mom is moving to a new place but I am worried that if I do not have this time that the pressure of life may break me.  I have already have had moments with the Keurig (if you read my blog you will know) and am now medicated but it is not enough.  I need to see if I can stop the brain from the doubt that I am making the right decisions, the reality that I am likely missing things with my mom’s stuff, the need to be there for everyone, the knowledge that work will just get more crazy and the understanding that I can only handle so much.  I am concerned that I do not know how to do this anymore.  If I could ask for one thing it would be a prayer that they move her either Thursday or next week.  I can make that happen and know that I can manage all the other things in my life.

I would like to say a huge thank you to everyone for all of their support throughout this whole process.  Your comments, prayers and support mean so very much to me.